Percolating.Maybe it’s not about getting it out but rather weaving it in. Maybe this is not the anger you purge but rather learn to withstand. Controlling it down into a low, hot burn that does not consume. I enter spaces in me never before known but they feel so familiar. […]
Parenting
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Powerlessness
Have you ever visited a loved one behind a window? Been denied the basic human need of physical touch? Separated by half an inch of man made barrier reinforced with metal and longing. My heart hurts. Swirling emotions in me that have been overwhelming and painful. This shit is so […]
Spoken Word
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Gaspar
It’s fire on my skin These memories that only You and I reside in Whispers of words Images slipping through me I cling to it and it becomes Sand in my fingers A piece of you no one else knows A piece of me that you hold I smell your […]
Parenting , Personal Evolution
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Transitions 2
I can feel all the emotions bubbling in my body. Stomach cramps and irritability due to overstimulation. Makes me want to move fast but what I know I need to do is slow down. Yesterday I felt like I was going to vomit and cry all at the same time. […]
Personal Evolution
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Burning
I am anxious and overwhelmed by everything right now which is making me highly irritable and easily annoyed.I feel like I can’t handle being pushed even another inch. How much of this is memory activated and how much is my true current state of being?My insides hurt and I think […]
Parenting , Personal Evolution
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Blowing It
I have moments where I worry about the negative impact I am having on my kid.I blow my lid sometimes. I am working on it and am much better than I used to be but then she pushes just a little bit harder. (Loud SCREAM that leaves my throat sore) […]
Spoken Word
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Colonizer
You’re vultures of TraumaCreating a woundThen feeding on the flesh Peering into precious spacesTaking joy in the sufferingEntertainment for the massesClaiming you came to serveThen stealing from the poorCloaked in entitlement Claiming an inheritance That wasn’t yoursBecause the truth isYou are spiritually poorSo you seek their spiritsCelebrate their treasures With […]
Uncategorized
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Exhausted
Here I am on the eve of a new month not having really written very much in the past month and not having posted anything new to the blog in just as long… It feels like a constant conflict, my deep desire to write and the flood of everything else […]
Personal Evolution
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Showing Up
I don’t know if there is anything more defeating than realizing you are not the mother you always imagined that you would be.I think the older you are when you are first initiated into motherhood the more crushing this reality becomes. Maybe because you had more time to really solidify […]
Spoken Word
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Fearing Me
I have unbeknownst to myselfAlways feared becoming the woman who I have forever longed to be. Every woman I envied. Every woman I admired. Every woman I looked up to. Every woman I feared. I have always feared my own power.A fear that has no scentThat made no senseThat was […]