I don’t know if there is anything more defeating than realizing you are not the mother you always imagined that you would be.I think the older you are when you are first initiated into motherhood the more crushing this reality becomes. Maybe because you had more time to really solidify […]
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Fearing Me
I have unbeknownst to myselfAlways feared becoming the woman who I have forever longed to be. Every woman I envied. Every woman I admired. Every woman I looked up to. Every woman I feared. I have always feared my own power.A fear that has no scentThat made no senseThat was […]
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Rage
I had a disturbing experience this week that pulled out what many might say “the worst in me.” My rage. I once upon a time may have also named it as “the worst” but today I know it simply as my justified emotion. Just as vital and necessary as all […]
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Grieving 20s
I feel like I’m grieving my 20s. An entire decade of my life. There is so much I lost in those years. So much life I lost. So much chaos. So much destruction that I then internalized into self-destruction while simultaneously building a career in the mental health field. I […]
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Jellyfish Sequel
In order to fully understand and appreciate the words in this piece you will need to have first read the original jellyfish story in one of my earlier posts which you can find HERE. If you are uninterested and wish to read on without any back story then let me […]
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Recovery
It has been one year since I was out on stress leave and almost one year since I launched my blog. As I reflect on what has unfolded in the last 12 months I find myself in deep gratitude and awe. If I had told myself a year ago that […]
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Litha
It feels like it has been officially too long since my last post. My truth is I really don’t like to write from a place of need but rather from a place of desire. My writing is my creative space and if it isn’t authentic then I don’t want to […]
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Surrender
I know the only way out is truth.I know it’s the only resolution to the anxiety.This one feels different.The emotion of confusion, uncertainty, conflictual misguidance and avoidance of the discomfort that comes with existential battles and hopelessness. This world feels so fucked. Throwing up a double bird to it all […]
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Wounded Lovers
She longs for loverHer homieHer friendTo find resolution Forever apartOr together again. What is it that she longs for? His eyes remind herSomething in his soul that sought out to find her A woman to love A place to rest Escape from the lies A purpose in the quest. What […]
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Evolution
Percolating in the backgroundThere is a new flavor of emotionCreating commotionIn slow motion I host it. Growing in the womb like an Egyptian tombOld dusty wisps of magicLets take a crack at itUnpack it It grows. Slowly unfolding and then explodingIn bursts and tinglesDuplicating out of singlesThen inter-mingles It spreads. […]