Percolating.Maybe it’s not about getting it out but rather weaving it in. Maybe this is not the anger you purge but rather learn to withstand. Controlling it down into a low, hot burn that does not consume. I enter spaces in me never before known but they feel so familiar. […]
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Transitions 2
I can feel all the emotions bubbling in my body. Stomach cramps and irritability due to overstimulation. Makes me want to move fast but what I know I need to do is slow down. Yesterday I felt like I was going to vomit and cry all at the same time. […]
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Burning
I am anxious and overwhelmed by everything right now which is making me highly irritable and easily annoyed.I feel like I can’t handle being pushed even another inch. How much of this is memory activated and how much is my true current state of being?My insides hurt and I think […]
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Blowing It
I have moments where I worry about the negative impact I am having on my kid.I blow my lid sometimes. I am working on it and am much better than I used to be but then she pushes just a little bit harder. (Loud SCREAM that leaves my throat sore) […]
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Showing Up
I don’t know if there is anything more defeating than realizing you are not the mother you always imagined that you would be.I think the older you are when you are first initiated into motherhood the more crushing this reality becomes. Maybe because you had more time to really solidify […]
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Jellyfish Sequel
In order to fully understand and appreciate the words in this piece you will need to have first read the original jellyfish story in one of my earlier posts which you can find HERE. If you are uninterested and wish to read on without any back story then let me […]
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Recovery
It has been one year since I was out on stress leave and almost one year since I launched my blog. As I reflect on what has unfolded in the last 12 months I find myself in deep gratitude and awe. If I had told myself a year ago that […]
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Surrender
I know the only way out is truth.I know it’s the only resolution to the anxiety.This one feels different.The emotion of confusion, uncertainty, conflictual misguidance and avoidance of the discomfort that comes with existential battles and hopelessness. This world feels so fucked. Throwing up a double bird to it all […]
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Whelmed
I am feeling very whelmed today. Not over. Not under. Just mid-level water logged. The traumas that have occurred at our local High Schools this last week have me ignited and I am trying to sort through the hot coals and burnt charcoal of it all. The traumas my clients […]
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Jellyfish
There was a story I heard once that went a little something like this… One day, two people were walking along the ocean shore when they came upon a beached jellyfish. Person one was immediately filled with concern and compassion. Searching for and finding a stick they began the tedious […]