Have you ever visited a loved one behind a window? Been denied the basic human need of physical touch? Separated by half an inch of man made barrier reinforced with metal and longing. My heart hurts. Swirling emotions in me that have been overwhelming and painful. This shit is so […]
Parenting , Personal Evolution
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Transitions 2
I can feel all the emotions bubbling in my body. Stomach cramps and irritability due to overstimulation. Makes me want to move fast but what I know I need to do is slow down. Yesterday I felt like I was going to vomit and cry all at the same time. […]
Parenting , Personal Evolution
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Blowing It
I have moments where I worry about the negative impact I am having on my kid.I blow my lid sometimes. I am working on it and am much better than I used to be but then she pushes just a little bit harder. (Loud SCREAM that leaves my throat sore) […]
Personal Evolution
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Showing Up
I don’t know if there is anything more defeating than realizing you are not the mother you always imagined that you would be.I think the older you are when you are first initiated into motherhood the more crushing this reality becomes. Maybe because you had more time to really solidify […]
Spoken Word
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Fearing Me
I have unbeknownst to myselfAlways feared becoming the woman who I have forever longed to be. Every woman I envied. Every woman I admired. Every woman I looked up to. Every woman I feared. I have always feared my own power.A fear that has no scentThat made no senseThat was […]
Spoken Word
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Rage
I had a disturbing experience this week that pulled out what many might say “the worst in me.” My rage. I once upon a time may have also named it as “the worst” but today I know it simply as my justified emotion. Just as vital and necessary as all […]
Spoken Word
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Grieving 20s
I feel like I’m grieving my 20s. An entire decade of my life. There is so much I lost in those years. So much life I lost. So much chaos. So much destruction that I then internalized into self-destruction while simultaneously building a career in the mental health field. I […]
Personal Evolution
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Jellyfish Sequel
In order to fully understand and appreciate the words in this piece you will need to have first read the original jellyfish story in one of my earlier posts which you can find HERE. If you are uninterested and wish to read on without any back story then let me […]
Personal Evolution
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Recovery
It has been one year since I was out on stress leave and almost one year since I launched my blog. As I reflect on what has unfolded in the last 12 months I find myself in deep gratitude and awe. If I had told myself a year ago that […]
Personal Evolution
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Whelmed
I am feeling very whelmed today. Not over. Not under. Just mid-level water logged. The traumas that have occurred at our local High Schools this last week have me ignited and I am trying to sort through the hot coals and burnt charcoal of it all. The traumas my clients […]